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pentru ca e sambata si o simt ca pe o zi de luni, in loc sa ma screm sa mai scot ceva creativ din creeru meu anticreativitate, im just gonna chill, si am sa fac un top cu toti bajetii pe care mi i pot aminti si cum simt acum. caci astea se schimba asa radical ca nici n o sa mi mai aduc aminte in cativa ani. in ordine cronologica (more or less):

bogdan - dont wanna remember. eww.

sorin - coca gay

vali - still care for him, just less. im still pretty comfy around him.

dej - omg cine ar fi crezut. i barely remember i had a crush on him. he s being really friendly. he s ok.

rip - he s a grown up now. we didnt keep in touch, but he s not a bad person.

alex - i bet he s as kind.

sabin - i think he went rly coo coo.

yosh - can t believe we ever shared anthing. he s in between good n bad.

dduckz - i was quite amazed of what a bitch he can be. i always looked for excuses, but he has none.

lulu - nimic. doesn t hate me, doesn t care. same for me.

lucian - uhh era undeva mai sus, cronologic vorbind. he s a very lame person that i dont get. unu' dintr-aia care nu stie ce insemna 'get over it' (*).

mihai - we never shared anthing, but he was one important crush. care a functionat exact ca la dej. gave me the "wtf was i thinking about". si nu ca resemnare..huh.. but after all these can t help thinkin of him as a (very) little friend.

marius - i cared at that time. i was rly dissapointed. he didn t deserv it.

sabin 2 - i rly liked to listen him talking.

sorin - my little friend. i wish ud understand me. i care, but theres no way i can avoid hurting u. but i m still trying.

manu - he s the only one who was just a friend (maybe i mean "whom i didn t kiss") din toata lista. what makes him so important tho? well..in every lie theres a bit of truth. i did fell for him. just in a different way than he wished. noone hurted me so bad de la my last crush.

gigi - my only option. in sensul ca id chose him over n over again. why? coz im a superficial and he s cute. is that the only reason? no. what makes this relationship more special than the previous(es)? right now i can give tons of answers, but probably nothing.


(*) nici eu nu stiu how to get over it, apparently. but im going to learn. i know sometimes its for the best. dar la mine cuvintele astea se aplicau numai pentru gfs/bfs. its like..why would i give up candy if im ok with it? i would give up only stuff that im not ok with. so manu bacame one of those kinda stuffs. he did a lot of things i didnt think he d ever do. he even became a threaten to my balance (pfft as if my life has ever been balanced). he is no longer desired around. i just couldnt give up the old him (since i dont have many friends, it was rly a miracle to feel so good around him). so im gonna face it. this post is about him and not the rest.
i will never ever try to make friends again. they only expose me. im fine as a loner. a loner with a bf. he s enough.